How do you handle it when you get bad answers to a desperate question you need indepth advice to ?

Im sorry you have gone through all that you have. On reading your words I think that the best thing for you to do is not even move abroad as yet but perhaps just to another city or town. Get away from the environment you are in and start afresh. Material things are not important. Peace of mind is worth so much more. You need to take each step as it comes and first off try and find yourself some help for your pent up anger. Dont be jealous of other people, because ill bets that as they might appear happy and content to you, they have their own problems in life too. Everyone does. Bullying has such a profound effect on people there must be something done about it to eliminate it from the schoolground. People who know that you have had problems and have seen you agressive are perhaps wary of you, dont really understand it. Treat people with respect and you will find that they will return it to you. I feel for you and I hope that you get some sort of help to make your life a better one. All the very best of luck. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx